[timanonymous]

You know for the last 4 days I have been sort of not 100% at work because of this terrible mental illness known as heartbreak.

I did call her today and yea I even asked me if she needed me and she said nicnoi...

I said only nicnoi? She said would you prefer "nothing"?

So I said okay, if you need me more than nicnoi you call me and then I hung up. So basically we are finished and I am dealing with it right now but it sucks. It really sucks. I just don't want to think about her anymore but I can't stop. I know this is going to take time.

But, I want to thank Frankie for bringing up a very critical point. I am living in $@#$@# Afghanistan and that was my first holiday in 7 months. When I go on holiday in Thailand everything should be about what I feel like doing. I think somehow the whole point of going on R&R got lost on me when I fell in love with her the first trip.

So I guess maybe another week of sulking and I should be okay.